Monday, April 30, 2007

Druggies

That's a snapshot of Berno's cupboard....with our combined stash of drugs (that is btw me, Berno n Jo). Yes, these drugs keep us fully operational. haha! We thought it was hilarious how much we have between us. Check out the kick-ass bottles!!! In that stash we have:

1) Vit B complex pills
2) Listerine (ok, i dunno why that was shoved in)
3) Brand's essence of chix
4) Vit C in tablet form, and in Redoxon fizzy drink form
5) Evening Primrose oil
6) Vit E pills (which apparently help in the absorption of all that Evening primrose goodnesss! How complicated is it being a gal lah?)
7) Some weird ginseng pill thingy

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Love in the shadows

I have my fair share of days when I just wanna cry and hide under my keyboard (I can't really explain why it has to be keyboard either. ha!).......but there are days like these, filled with warm and fuzzy moments that make me just wanna sing in the rain. :)

Mich: *pokes Berno and smiles* You're my fwen! :) (yes, we're random like that. heh!)
Berno: Yesh, I'm your fwen. I like being fwen!
Mich: You like being fwen???
Berno: Yeah yeah!! :)
Mich: Err....because you're FWENLY???
Berno: *laughs*

Every beat of my heart

It has been a humbling experience indeed....being sick for such a prolonged period, and having to teach vocal classes without speaking, but just whispering, using hand gestures, and writing on the board/ paper. (It drew some laughs from the students I assure you!)

When you get to a point where every breath you take is a real struggle; every word you try to speak/sing actually hurts; every step you take becomes a real physical exertion......you start to realize how absolutely reliant we are upon God, for all of life is a gift from Him. I've learnt not to take the smallest things for granted now. I've learnt (the hard way) to wait and listen more, and to let my words be few.

Thank You God for watching over every beat of my heart. :)
Thank You God for being so gracious with me in the classroom....
For teaching me how to use the voice of the heart,
above the voice of the physical body.


"In this life, as I walk these streets
Love open my eyes, show me what You see
I know, I'll never let you go"
- 'Never let me go' by Joel Houston



(As for a health update....my voice is slowly recovering. Hopefully that stabilizes. But I'm still coughing, and I've recently sprained my wrist. I don't know how on earth that happened. Best right? haha! So now it hurts when I try to hold cups/ brush my teeth/play keyboard.)

Friday, April 27, 2007

Wishin' on Stars

"So if you’re wishin on stars
You better go out and get it
Cause you if you want it bad enough
You won’t stop until you have it

Don’t let them tell you
What you can and cannot do
You’ve got to see it through
Like you always knew"
- 'Always Feel This Way' by Tristan Prettyman

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Welcome to the fold!

In the recent weeks, it's been so wonderful having W, and later J, join Shirley and me for the weekly services at Riverlife Church. Welcome to the fold gals! I must say it is so heartening to worship together under the same sanctuary once again. I'm looking forward to service every week for an awesome time of worship, hearing God's Word, and fellowship....(and yes, even the occasional baby-sitting'. haha!) :)

Hush, Hush

Yes, I've gone and done it. I've completely lost my voice. Perhaps some of you know already, I had flu 2 weeks back...thought I recovered...then it became this annoying postnasal drip and cough.....which forced me into taking M.C, led to some partial loss of my voice over the weekend, and cancellation of Sat classes. Thankfully, the voice recovered by Sun, and I taught my 3 classes as usual yesterday. But after that....I guess the voice was in shock, and as a sure sign of protest, it just quit working altogether. Classes had to be cancelled and rescheduled again today. Felt sooooo bad for the hassle I created for the admin staff and the students.

Just when you think things can't possibly get any worse....I kinda twisted my ankle on the way to the clinic (which was closed), 'cos I missed a step. haha! But I don't think that is very serious. No worries.

Ah well...now I'm reduced to a combination of sign language and whispers. Feel so handicapped. It's funny how those around me end up whispering and using sign language too when THEY can speak perfectly fine. haha! In fact, the coaches deliberately WHISPERED Dorcas' birthday song during her celebration just now, so that I wouldn't feel left out. It has brought me some amusement in the midst of this misery. I also really appreciated my boss's prayer for me.....which went something like this:

"God, I know that You lead us through trials for a reason....to prepare us for something bigger. I pray that during this season, Michelle will be able to hear Your voice with even greater clarity. And although You can't use her voice now, I know You'll use her heart and her writing as she plans the syllabus. Keep her close to Your heart God. Amen"

I was deeply touched by that.....the thought that God could use my heart, more than my voice.

Thank God for Priscilla, my trainee coach too. Who has been cheerfully easing my teaching load during this time. Am soooo glad she's here to help me!

And of course, there's dear Berno.....she's been my guardian angel. Since she knows me almost telepathically, she's become my VOICE in the office. haha! For instance, this afternoon Danny taunted me with funny looks, knowing full well I cannot answer. So I let out this barely audible squeak of protest, and Berno came to my defence! Berno also accompanied me to buy dinner, cos I can't order for myself. Bless the gal...she understands my thoughts, pokes, squeaks and even thinks its cute that I am mute for now.

Finally, thanks everyone for your concern. It's been most heart-warming. Erm, just don't call me ok? You know I can't talk now. (Audrey made the mistake of calling me mah. Funny that girl!)

Please continue to pray for me....I'll need super-fast, miraculous healing in time for the rest of my classes this week. I'm running of time-slots to re-schedule my classes. I know I need to clock in some proper rest time....but it's a concept that I'm still trying to understand cos I literally get stressed that I'm sick and can't teach, and it results in 'restless rest' if you get what I mean. I'm always on the go....and I just get so frustrated when I'm forced to do nothing. Oh man....God help me. I'm still learning how to breathe....

Monday, April 23, 2007

"Beholding is Becoming"- Tim Hughes

Thanks Glenn for sending me this awesome article! It is quite a moving read. :)

"Genuine worship will not only lead to our lives, but also our society, being transformed." - Tim Hughes

I so agree with that and pray that for my students.

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Transforming Worship
Date Posted: 4/19/2007 on www.worshiptogether.com
Author: Tim Hughes

A few years ago I met a retired Anglican Bishop, from South Africa. As we talked he told me about his retirement plans. He’d been unsure for months as to what the future would hold, but he kept on praying, “Lord show me what it is that I can do, that You will bless?” For months he prayed this prayer but felt God was silent. And then one day he realised that all this time he’d been praying the wrong prayer. He felt God tell him what he needed to pray, “Lord what is it that You are doing that I can bless?” The two prayers seem so similar, but they are significantly different.

Our journey as worshippers should always be to find out what pleases the Lord (Ephesians 5:10). In essence to find out what God is blessing and get involved with that. Rather than a ‘me-centred’ faith, we need to pursue a ‘Him-centred’ faith. At the heart of worship, we as God’s creation, choose to centre ourselves around Him; our Creator. We live to bless Him. We live to bring pleasure and enjoyment to Him.

When I read the bible, one thing seems abundantly clear; God is passionate about the poor. Jesus made it so clear … “The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because He has anointed me to preach good news to the poor (Luke 4:18) In Amos 5, God’s heart burns with anger as He rebukes a people who offer up songs of worship and other choice offerings, but trample and deprive the poor for their own selfish gain. We can’t escape the truth – God’s heart breaks for the last, the least and the lost. If I want to glorify God in all that I do, then issues of justice and the poor need to be at the core of who I am.

With my job I get to travel all over the world leading worship at different churches and conferences. I get to work with some amazing people, I hear inspiring speakers, and I get to see God move in remarkable ways. Recently I went on a ministry trip to South Africa with some friends from Soul Survivor. Compared to most trips this one was fairly low-key. We led at a couple of relatively small evening meetings but for the rest of our trip we spent time visiting different townships and projects throughout Durban. We spent a day in a township called Amaoti, where we spent the afternoon playing football with HIV/AIDS orphans. We spent a morning serving breakfast to homeless men on the streets. We spent another day at a school in a township called Mayville, where poverty is rife. We visited people’s homes, we chatted, and at times we laughed and cried together. During the week my heart was so stirred. I felt devastated at the injustice. But do you know what? I fell more in love with Jesus. In the lives of the people I met I encountered Christ. I can honestly say it was one of the best trips I’ve been on. There were no big meetings; we didn’t see hundreds of lives changed. On the contrary; the people whose lives were changed the most, were ours.

As we worship we will change. Beholding is becoming. The more we look to Jesus and spend time adoring Him; the more we unpack the Scriptures to ponder upon His character and nature, the more we will share His heart and obey His commands. Genuine worship will not only lead to our lives, but also our society, being transformed.

“Just as worship begins in holy expectancy, it ends with holy obedience. If worship does not propel us into greater obedience, it has not been worship.” Richard Foster

I love the story of Zacchaeus the tax collector. Intrigued to see who Jesus was, he climbed up a tree to see what all the fuss was about. Jesus looked up at Zacchaeus and said, “Zacchaeus come down immediately. I must stay at your house today.” Zacchaeus was overcome with joy and gladly welcomed Jesus into his home. It’s fascinating to read what he then does. Zacchaeus stood up and said to the Lord, “Look, Lord! Here and now I give half my possessions to the poor, and if I have cheated anybody out of anything, I will pay back four times the amount.” (Luke 19:8) Zacchaeus encountered Jesus and fell in love. His response was to give to the poor – to act justly. We don’t read that Jesus had told Zacchaeus to do this; it was an impromptu, heart-felt response.

Worship is the total alignment of our heart, soul, mind and strength with the will of God.
When we worship we will find we are led to the poor, and if we love Jesus we will gladly follow.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

While I was on sick leave....


An sms exchange that occured around 1pm today:
Mich: Hey Berno! I'm on M.C today.
Berno: Aiyoh, take care of yourself. I will take care of Mumble for you!!
Mich: *thinks to self...and almost types "Yes but be warned that Mumble tends to wander around on his own."....but is too tired to type in the end.*

5pm@BMI.....the above scene greeted Michelle when she returned to her desk
(A notice that says "Where's Michelle?" is pasted over her ugly Dell Desktop.
Below are her soft toys all lined up in a row)

Mich: *stunned silence*
Berno: Aiyoh...when you weren't around today, your soft toys were running all around looking for you! *grinz*
Mich: ?!?!???!?!?!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Fwens

It's my 2nd day of M.C (well....half day to be precise, cos I still go in to teach my classes at night). Doc Aw says that I'm down with upper respiratory tract infection. The meds are really knocking me out....making me drowsy. I hardly know what I'm typing now, but I'm listening to the comforting sounds of Corrinne May, which wrap around the soul like a warm blankie. And yeah...who cares if they're Christmas songs. Hmmm...nice.

It's also comforting to be surrounded by friends who check on me every now and then, and offer up their prayers to Daddy for me. Thank you.....it really makes a difference to have you angels in my life....my fwens. :)

May, Audrey use that word so often- "fwen". And Berno just typed this sms to me yesterday when i was down in the dumps:

"Take care my fwen. :)"

I love that word. How can anyone remain in a foul mood when they hear that funny word- FWEN?? :)

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

"The Carpet's worn...."

I just love the bridge of "Desperate people" from the
new United Live album...it's just brimming
with passion.


Desperate People (Joel Houston, Michael Guy Chislett)
==============================================
Bridge:

We found our voice
We found our cause
We're on our knees, the carpet's worn
We join our hearts
With distant shores and sing to You lord


Show us the way to Your heart....

Fire Fall Down

"Cause I know that You're alive 
You came to fix my broken life
And I'll sing to glorify
Your Holy Name
Jesus Christ "
- 'Fire Fall Down' by Matt Crocker


It's so amazing and beautiful to see God moving in the lives around me! To see walls built around hearts crumble down, streams flowing in what once was desert land, people stepping out of their boats in faith, and to witness the transformative power of God-encounters.

I was talking to Glenn about this....and something similar is stirring in his church. An air of expectancy is in the air.....it really seems like a wave of revival is here. Yes Lord, we've been praying so long for this....


Fire Fall Down (Matt Crocker/United Live)
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You bought my life with the
Blood that You shed on the cross
When You died for the sins of men
And You let out a cry
Crucified now alive in me

These hands are Yours
Teach them to serve as You please
And I'll reach out desperate to see
All the greatness of God
May my soul rest assured in You

I'll never be the same
No I'll never be the same

Chorus:
Cause I know that You're alive
You came to fix my broken life
And I'll sing to glorify
Your Holy Name
Jesus Christ

You changed it all
You broke down the wall
When I spoke and confessed
In You I'm blessed
Now I walk in the light
In victorious sight of You

Your fire fall down
Fall down
On us we pray
As we seek

Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Songs

"A song is a pillow you can lay your
heart on"- Corrinne May

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Keybird

Keybird...get it??? So cute this one.

Finishing Strong

"For every ten men who start strong with Christ in their twenties, only one out of those ten will finish strong."
-
Paul Beck.


The statistics are alarming.....and most certainly sobering. But when I think about it....I realize that it's not all that surprising because I've seen it happen to some around me already.
I certainly can't afford to be complacent. God, I really hope and pray I can finish strong. Keep me close to Your heart always.

"So teach us to number our days,
That we may gain a heart of wisdom." Psalm 90:12


An excerpt from "How to ruin your life by 40" by Steve Farrar:
=================================================================
A number of years ago, I wrote a book titled "Finishing Strong". And in that book I told the story of John Bisagno. John is now retired, but he pastored in Houston for many years.

When Bisagno was twenty-one, he was very excited. He was getting ready to graduate from college and marry the love of his life. He had also decided to go into full-time ministry. He was very optimistic about his future. One night, he was having dinner at his fiancee's home. After dinner, he went outside on the porch with his future father-in-law, Dr Paul Beck. Dr. Beck had been in ministry since he was John's age. You could say he'd seen a lot of water go under the bridge. As they were talking about John's future plans and dreams, Dr.Beck gave him some advice, "As you go into ministry, John, make sure you stay close to Christ every day."

Young John replied, "Yes sir. I know that's important."
His future father-in-law continued:

You're just getting started in this race. And it's a very long race. You won't hit the finish line until you're in your seventies or eighties. The finish line is a long way off, John. But the goal of this race is to finish strong. And that's the last thing that Satan wants you to do. That's why you have to keep your heart close to Christ every day. It's been my experience that for every ten men who start strong with Christ in their twenties, only one out of those ten will finish strong.

That shocked John Bisagno. The staggering statistic left him in disbelief.
"That can't be. Just one out of ten?"
"Unfortunately, that has been my experience. Some men are taken out by the love of money, others are taken out by theological liberalism, and may more are taken out by sexual immorality. Satan knows how to lay a trap and set an ambush. He knows every man's weaknesses. That's why it's been my experience that only one out of ten will finish strong."

John Bisagno was blown away by the remarks of the older man. He was so stunned that he went home and started thinking about his friends. They were all in their early twenties and all had bright futures. They were fully committed followers of Christ.

He was graduating from a Bible college, and many of his buddies, like him, were going to be pastors, missionaries, youth leaders, and worship ministers. He couldn't believe that only one out of ten would finish strong. The very idea shook him to the core and it was then that he got the idea.

He took his Biblbe and turned to a blank page in the back. On that page, he wrote down the names of twenty-four of his friends. He knew these guys. Like him, they were all in their early twenties. The idea that all of them wouldn't finish strong was unthinkable. Maybe Satan would pick off a few, but surely most of them would stick. These were guys who would be willing to die for Christ, if neccessary.

I heard Bisagno tell this story a number of years ago. It got very quiet in the room when he began to tell the rest of the story.

"As the years have gone by, from time to time I have gotten a letter or a phone call. And sadly, I have turned to the page in the back of my Bible and had to put a line through a name. I would always do that with such great sadness. The years have gone by and I am now fifty-three years old. Of the original twenty-four names in the back of my Bible, there are just three of us left."

Twenty-four young men who were all in their early twenties. And thirty-two years later, there are just three of them still standing. The majority of these men had ruined their lives before they turned forty.

What will your life look like when you turn forty?

Cross over from the dark side


According to Jason...this has been overheard in the Campus Crusade Forerunner's office, and I find it absolutely hilarious! Talk about the evangelical zeal of Mac owners!

Mac Owners to PC Owners:
"Won't you open up you heart and accept this Mac as your personal computer??"

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

MAD

If you think the above scene of my office cubicle is bizarre....then well, I'm just as stunned as you. My brilliantly insane colleague Bernice (who sits opp. me) decided that it would be Mumble's (my soft toy penguin) birthday today. She just decided...and there was nothing I could do to stop her. She then proceeded to make Mumble a birthday card (ref to the pic) for everyone to sign (in fact you can see some signatures already).....and of course she pasted Mumble on top of it, with a celebratory balloon beside him.

Next came the announcement card:

If you can't read it clearly....it states:
"Hello Everybody! I'm 2 years old this year. Wish me Happy Burfdae!
Please sign on my card & pass my pressies to Michelle!"

Erm......mind you, I sit DIRECTLY OUTSIDE the Directors' Office hor! And everyone's gonna think that I assembled that myself.

The news started spreading in the office...and soon an e-mail was sent out by Dorcas, our F&B in-charge stating this:

"Hello
In celebration of Mumble's 2 yr old birthday (See michelle's table), I will be catering Chicken Cutlet Japanese Curry this thursday evening!!

Menu: Chicken Cutlet Japanese Curry (ingredients: chicken cutlet, carrots, potatoes,onions, rice and of cse Japanese curry sauce!!!)
Cost: ~ S$3.00

Please place your order using the order form by Wednesday evening.

Thanks.
Dorcas"

Mmmmm......I think it was the Vit B complex pill that Bernice ate that's to blame for this madness. It probably made her hyper. haha!

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Quiet my soul

"The Lord Your God is with You
He is Mighty to Save.
He will take great delight in You,
He will quiet You with His love,
He will rejoice over You with singing."
- Zephaniah 3:17

Last Sat, a student gave me a Thank You card with this verse written on it. The dear girl had no idea how timely it was going to be for me.....how God really spoke deep into my heart with these reassuring words that I needed to hear so badly. And to drive home the point, ....we sang "Mighty to save" in church again today. :) Awesome stuff.

It's the start of a new term tmrw.....the first 2 weeks is usually a jittery period. And to make it even more jittery, is the fact that i'm launching a new module (think of it as a pilot). I don't know how things are gonna go in class tmrw......but I'm gonna trust that God knows what He's doing (even though i don't always), and that He's truly Mighty To Save! *smilez*

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Jo got Punk'd!!!

What does it look like??? haha! Yes, somebody kena 'punk'd'!
It was Jo's birthday...and this is her table we're making a huge mess of.
I love the notice we pasted on top of all the red/white tape + random items such as hangers, rough paper, umbrella and giant torch-light.




And its was Berno's corny idea to stick up Jo's lamb soft toy beside the 'meh'! haha!

Friday, April 06, 2007

"Break my heart for what breaks Yours"

If you think about it....that is a rather scary prayer to pray, because when we trust that God answers prayer, you can certainly expect Him to move in your life, in your heart.

"Hosanna" (by Brooke Fraser)
[from the new United Live album, 'All of the above']

Bridge:
Heal my heart and make me clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity......

Thursday, April 05, 2007

"Devotion"

A powerful new song from the New United Live album,
"All of the Above".

Yes Lord...I'm praying for our world to bow to Your plan!

Verse 1:


I've been running trying to be one who sees
I've been working salvation out of my knees
there is nothing better than knowing
we are redeemed

I'm believing trusting in creative hands
I am praying for our world to bow to Your plan
and this one thought is unmistakeable
I take up my cross and follow You lord

Chorus:

when You stand the tall trees and mountains bow
when You speak the fiercest of oceans is still
and I see sinners seek devotion
lost become chosen
and I fall to my knees

Verse 2:

I'm forgiven by a Savior who did not deserve death
He was blameless, when I was lost in shamefulness
I'm delivered but it doesn't seem right
unless I keep my eyes focused on the Savior who gave His life

in the middle of a world that denies it believes
it is breaking apart at the very seam
in this one thing to be alive for
and it's to take up my cross and follow You Lord

Bridge:

I will take up my cross and
follow Lord where You lead me
I will take up my cross
and follow wherever You go (2x)